I GOTTA LOVE
BY L.SCATTER

NEAR THE END OF 97 ALMOST 1998
IN THE SMALL AUDITORIUM, LONG BEACH CAL STATE
UNIVERSITY, DIVERSITY WAS CERTAINLY HAPPENIN
AND YOU COULD SEE THAT REFLECTED BY THE PEOPLE THAT’S RAPPIN
ON THE STAGE IN THE THEATER, BLAZED OUT AND BEING THE
BEST EMCEE THAT I COULD BE SO THAT EVEN THE
CROWD WOULD RECOGNIZE AND I’M CHECKIN SETS OF EYES
‘CAUSE I ALWAYS TRY TO MAKE CONTACT WITH EVERYONE INSIDE
THERE WERE A PAIR OF FEMALE PEOPLE NEAR THE FRONT ROW
WHO CLEARLY APPRECIATED ALL THESE PERFORMERS AT ONE SHOW
YOU HAD HOMEMADE GRAVY, THE BLACK EYED PEAS, THE BLACK WHOLE
AND ME THE SCATTER B. JERN ONE AND MINO
WE WERE THE MINDTRAP AND WE CHANGED OUR MINDS BACK WHEN
WE WERE EVOLVING OUR IDENTITIES AND RHYMES BACK THEN
LOVE IS BLIND BAT MEN I SMILED SHE SMILED BACK AND
IT WOULD LEAD TO ASIATIC DRAGONFLY ACTION

MONTHS PASS BY BUT 98 IS STILL THE YEAR THOUGH
I’M KINDA USED TO PEOPLE LOOKIN AT ME LIKE A WEIRDO
I’M AT A CLUB ON SANTA MONICA THURSDAY NIGHT REWIND (LEGEND!)
HAD MORE THAN A FEW DRINKS BUT NOT EXCESSIVE, I’M A BE FINE
HOOKED ON CIGARETTES, TO THE PATIO MADE A BEELINE
IMPOSED ON THE CHAIR OF A GIRL AND THOUGHT “AYO SHE FINE”
CONVERSATION WAS A MATCH STRUCK UP IN FLASHES AND
SHE ASKED ME IF I WAS FROM “MINDTRAP” I STARTED LAUGHIN AND
I MADE HER FEEL UNEASY, BECAUSE ME AND RED CLEEZY,
AND JERN WERE TALKIN ABOUT CHAGIN THE NAME OVER A BIDI
WE HAD USED IT FOR THAT ONE SHOW QUOTIN ORGANIZED KONFUSION
BRING IT ON MUTHAFUCKA BRING IT ON THAT’S WHAT WE’D DO THEN
AND SO I BROUGHT IT ON AS SUCH A CHARMING RAPPER DO
SHE INVITED US TO DENNY’S ON SUNSET FOR SOME CLUB AFTERFOOD
SMOTHERED HASH BROWNS AND COFFEE MADE MY APPETITE
SHE HAD A GRILLED CHEESE WITH TOMATO AND A SIDE OF RANCH THAT NIGHT

YEARS GO PAST, THE HAPPINESS AND UPS AND DOWNS AND
MIDDLE GROUND AND DISCONTENT THAT JUST SEEMS TO SURROUND THEM
THE DISTRUST AND DISGUST AND THIS JUST ASTOUNDS THEM
AND DUMBFOUNDS THEM, LOVE LEFT FOR THE UNDERGROUND THEN
AND THE CROWNIN ACHIEVEMENT OR CHERRY ON TOP
WAS GETTING MARRIED BY SHOTGUN, A NEFARIOUS PLOT
TO SOME, IT CARRIES A LOT OF BAGGAGE
LOOKED AT AS A SAVAGE IN VARIOUS SPOTS
THIS GLADIATOR GOT HIS CHARIOT ROCKED
AND WILDIN OUT TO WHERE HE’D BURY HIS COCK DEEP INTO VARIOUS TWATS
VERY MERCENARY, DIRTY AS THE HARRIEST COP
I CALLAHANED IT TO HIM, YOU REALLY SERIOUS? STOP
BECAUSE CLEARLY YOU’VE GOT A WOMAN WORTHY OF PROPS
WHOSE LOVE ENDURED THROUGH HATE AND SEPARATION IT’S REALLY A LOT
TO COME BACK TO, AND THAT’S TRUE I FEEL THAT I OUGHT
TO LET THE WORLD KNOW, AS FAR AS GIRLS GO MY ‘CILLE IS THE TOP
I GOT A LOVE